65 My Final Weekly Blog Message (There will be random ones following this but they will not be regularly scheduled.)

Writing is‎ not really my thing.  I have done a lot of writing as I finished my graduation requirements for my PhD in psychology few years ago yet, I still wouldn't call myself a writer.  However, when you have something you need to say, you find way to say it.  For me, right now even though I don't call myself a writer I merely have something I feel God wants me to say which is the reason I have been writing these blogs.

‎ His love and concern for those He has created can be summed up with these simple words – God loves you.  Even this does not seem enough.  I am trying to share my heart and journey with you and hope you will take the opportunity you have in life right now to correct everything between you and the Creator of Life.

I am try to explain my journey with my Saviour and Creator to help you see how much HE gave when he died on the cross and gave His life for you and me simply because HE loves us all so very much.

This experience I am trying to talk about is beyond my understanding and way beyond my little brains ability to handle, PHD or not, but I know it is true because God will never lie about anything.
I do not know of any word that comes close to telling you how much God has done for me in my life.
All of us that live here on this earth will make mistakes and continues to make mistakes.  There is a way out for us.  That way is God and believing in His Son and that He died on the Cross for you and me.  We can ask for forgiveness and we have an opportunity to get our heart right with God now while we are still on this earth.

When I stop and look at my life and the mistakes I have hade and the nonsense I have put Him through and the failure I have been I do not understand why He is so patient and merciful with me.
Since this blog began there are a number of people who continue to tell me they are blessed by the writing.

This is why I write. It's not for my benefit.  It is to Glorify my God and to encourage you and your walk with Him.

I am an English teacher, but don’t judge my grammar, instead look at God's thoughts. It all about Him and nothing about me. Read His thoughts, not my English in case even as an English teacher, I still mess up. I'm not trying to be the perfect English teacher with this writing and Blog, I just went to be a tool for the Lord of what he can do with this heart.  I'll get the language thing down one day. If you are reading this please don't judge the school system for hiring either, my head might not have it all together as time moves forward. I'm not sure I have gotten the grammar correct.

Billy Graham who recently went to his home in heaven, before he died, said “We all die.  I don’t want to escape it I want to go.”

My help comes from you.

By Casting Crowns

This song played Monday as I lay in the MRI machine waiting for the test to run, I was trying anything to entertain myself until the time would pass by and we could move on to the next step.

The doctor told me that the cancer in my brain was growing aggressively and chemo was not helping, more radiation was out of the question and surgery was not a possibility because there were too many spots growing.
Probably around two months from now and my body will likely begin shutting down.

Then, the next step is to wait on God's loving arms to welcome me home for eternity.
Thanks for the walking this journey with me through your thoughts and prayers.

 Please continue those prayers for me and my family as we take the rest of the journey with God's grace and help.

Until such a time, please take a moment to see how your heart matches our God’s heart as He uses life and people to influence us towards Him.

I will write more as I am able to with no promises of how long they will be or often they will come.
At least that is what I have to say for now.  Unless He tells me to write about another experience in life.  So, check back. We are Never done until He walks us through that last breath.
‎Love you all dearly, although never as much as our Creator does.

Addendum (from Dad)
I definitely am not a writer but I want to add a couple of comments.

The first comment I want to add is about something in Debbie’s last blog about her walking in to the office at Moffitt.  When she would ride the wheel chair in she would always get a yellow band on her arm.  She was so determined to go in without that DUMB YELLOW band that we worked for at least two weeks to prepare to enter Moffitt without the yellow band.  We walk about 500 feet to the stop sign and back.  A total of about 1,000 feet.  This 1,000 feet would take her from 50 minutes to 1 hour and 20 minutes depending how she was feeling that particular day. The day at Moffitt came and she walked in to the doctor’s office and when we told him he looked around looking for the wheelchair.  He did not think she could have done it.  She fulfilled her goal that day.  Praise God for helping her accomplish it.

This past Monday when we finished they told her she did not need to come back in to Moffitt.  There is nothing they can do.
As we were leaving Moffitt Debbie said, “The first time I came in here I rode the wheel chair in.  As I leave this last time I want to WALK out.”  And she did.  It took a while but she walked out all the way to the car.

She did not want to do the blog in the beginning because she did not want people felling sorry for her.  We talked about it so that people would know how to pray specifically for her instead of generically praying.  She wants so much to honor and glorify her Lord and Savior.

Pray for her and us – her family.