Wednesday, June 21, 2017

#26: CONFESSION TIME:

Some trust in Chariots . . .
I was recently introduced to a small booklet entitled “Don’t waste your cancer” written by John Piper.
I am not a stranger to research.  God gave me a gift a few years ago by allowing me to complete my PhD in Psychology and Christian counseling. With that came a lot of research not only for the classes but to complete my dissertation.  I still do a lot of research when something comes up that I want to know more information about.  I will quickly get on the Internet and start looking up more information about the topic.   That is exactly what I did as soon as I found out that I had a glioblastoma (GBM).  It would not take long after reading all of the statistics involved before I would have to stop and take a break as it would become a bit overwhelming. Today I read a section in John Piper’s booklet.  It was entitled we waste our cancer if we seek comfort from our odds rather than from God.
He goes on to discuss how the world “gets comfort from their odds”, or in my case stress from their odds. 
He goes on to say that “some count their chariots (percentages of survival) but we trust in the name of the Lord our God (Psalm20:7) . . .We felt that we had received the sentence of death.  That was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God. . ..”  The aim of God in our cancer (among a thousand other good things) is to knock props out from under our hearts so that we rely utterly on him.”
I must admit this is a tough lesson for me.  I can say for sure that this journey has helped renew my relationship with the Lord and teach me more about Him, drawing me closer as I see Him working in my life.

Another confession:  I want to help God sort out this medication issue.  I often do that, get in God’s way, offer Him all my expertise in dealing with the problem, instead of just casting all my care upon Him, because He cares for me.

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