During this journey,
I’ve had to say to say goodbye to a lot of different things.
- Playing the piano
- Living alone I’ve now moved in with my parents as I cannot currently live alone
- Hopes of becoming a Foster parent - yes, I had been praying about this and looking into the details involved.
- Driving a car
- Being independent –
- Typing on a computer - I am now using a voice recognition program, which doesn’t work very well and gets frustrating sometimes, but is better than one-handed typing, usually.
- My career as a teacher.
Just the other day I went over to the
High school to gather a few of my personal belongings from my old room, since I
will not be returning for the next school year. As we were pulling
out of the parking lot, I began to cry and said that this stupid thing keeps
chipping away at my life. I told one of my doctors the other day emotions
may run a little wild in my head, but that my heart is at peace. Interestingly
enough that same day I had several reminders about joy that only comes from the
Lord and how it is really a “calm delight”. And I guess that’s what I would say
is in my heart not because I consider myself a strong individual or one
of great faith. I know that’s only because of the Lord, because of people
praying and because I’m surrounded by loving and caring people who take time
out for me to encourage me and remind me that I’m not walking this journey
alone.
Cancer is ugly, but God’s grace is beautiful.
So, saying goodbye to some things
has meant Hello to others, like grace as I have NEVER experienced before.
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