In the days leading up to my recent MRI and doctor’s visit
Proverbs 3:5-6 has been coming to my mind as well as this particular song, the
lyrics of which I have copied for you below.
All things work for our good
Though sometimes we don't
See how they could
Struggles that break our hearts in two
Sometimes blind us to the truth
Our Father knows what's best for us
His ways are not our own
So when your pathway grows dim
And you just don't see Him,
Remember you’re never alone.
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust His Heart.
He sees the master plan
He holds the future in His hand,
So don't live as those who have no hope,
ALL our hope is found in Him.
We see the present clearly
He sees the first and last
And like a tapestry He's weaving you and me,
To someday be just like Him.
He alone is faithful and true
He alone knows what is best for you.
When you can't trace His hand
When you don't see His plan
When you don't understand
Trust His Heart
Though sometimes we don't
See how they could
Struggles that break our hearts in two
Sometimes blind us to the truth
Our Father knows what's best for us
His ways are not our own
So when your pathway grows dim
And you just don't see Him,
Remember you’re never alone.
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust His Heart.
He sees the master plan
He holds the future in His hand,
So don't live as those who have no hope,
ALL our hope is found in Him.
We see the present clearly
He sees the first and last
And like a tapestry He's weaving you and me,
To someday be just like Him.
He alone is faithful and true
He alone knows what is best for you.
When you can't trace His hand
When you don't see His plan
When you don't understand
Trust His Heart
This past Monday, I went to Tampa to have another scan and
to see the doctor. When I woke up Monday morning, I experienced a great
amount of peace which I know came from God as a result of so many people
praying.
When the physician's assistant walked in the door and sat
down, the first thing she said was, “The scan looks good, the doctor will be in
soon to explain and tell you all about it.”
I believe it was at that moment that the elephant that had
been sitting on my shoulders, finally moved.
Both the physician's assistant and the doctor talked to me
about how things have been going and how I was feeling. They were both impressed at my current level
of strength and improved mobility on my left side.
The scan revealed that the two spots on the left may have possibly grown. However, the
MRI report and the doctor both agree that this could be just a result of the
radiation that was done last month. The whole section on the right from the
original surgery, which I have now had three surgeries in the same place, looks
great. There is no indication that
anything is growing in that area. The
doctor was content that we are on the right track but we'll re-evaluate in
about 7 weeks to see what's happening with the other two spots.
The doctor once again admitted the fact that he really
doesn't understand what is going on with my cancer. He says it's not responding as he would have
expected: it's not growing as fast, the last surgery I had revealed that what
was there was mostly dead already, the rate at which this particular cancer is
growing is much slower than normal. I believe the doctor is baffled. He told me the first day we met that he was a
man of science, not faith, I believe he may be seeing more evidence of what God
can do.
There is another therapy out there that has proven itself
successful with this particular type of cancer in a lot of patients. My doctor
would like to give it a try. So, as soon as we can get everything set up I will
start it as well. This is the one that I had mentioned previously about coming
from a sci-fi movie. It is a cap that I
will wear on my head, called Optune.
Once again, God has provided in an amazing way. This
particular therapy is quite expensive and most insurance companies will not
agree to pay for it. Mine has refused as
well. However, the company that supplies
the device has agreed to work with me on this and the most that I will have to
pay his $50 a month. This particular
device generally cost $20,000 a month. There are several other things that God
has provided in the last few weeks, but that would take several more pages to
explain. I’ll work on mentioning them in
later posts. For now, let me just say,
God is amazing and I am humbled by all the people who are faithfully praying
for me and that is a real encouragement.
In the meantime, between now and the next scan, I will
continue with the chemotherapy that I have already been doing.
So, after hearing all of the good news, on the way home we
stopped to celebrate again with frozen yogurt. This has become a tradition that we intend to
keep for a long time.
Prayer Requests:
Strength and
continued good health as this double chemo makes me really tired and lowers my
immunity. Thankfully, the second chemo
is only taken Monday – Wednesday which makes the rest of the week better.
October 26th
(starting at 9:30 – in Tampa) MRI, lab work and follow-up visit with the doctor
to see how the treatments are working and where we stand.
Continued therapy on my own to improve strength and
mobility on my left side.
Strength for family as they are my support group,
encouragers and care givers, particularly my parents. I am so thankful for the
family and friends God has blessed me with.